5-7 Mental Breakdowns

December 12, 2012

Today my boss told me that if you don’t have at least 5-7 mental breakdowns during college, you are doing it wrong. I am now extremely close to surpassing the 7 and I still have a long ways to go. For all I can think about right now is how much sleep my body needs compared to how much I have time for, the fact that I have not one, but two government finals left and I have two chipped teeth that will require lots of novocain and sharp objects to fix.

Mental breakdowns one and two slapped me in the face in the library at 8 a.m. this morning and the third after I got home, laid down, and realized I just needed to cry a little bit. After a nap, Starbucks, and a few episodes of How I Met Your Mother I realized that exceeding that 7 must mean I’m “doing college” even more right! Right? I sat down, studied, and realized that all hope wasn’t lost and while the brain is a beautiful piece of machinery it too must be fixed at times.

Whether it needs a nap, caffeine, a healthy dose of How I Met Your Mother, or maybe all 3… it was eventually going to be okay. My brain (however odd it may be) will take a sick day every now and then leaving me stranded, but come back ever so strong with the determination of a thousand brains. Until it gets tired and sick once again, and there I will be on the kitchen floor blubbering with a tub of lactose free ice cream, until it can rejuvenate. It’s a cycle.

And like every other college student around me, it is never ending. And that is the hard truth about it. But after I soak my feelings in melty ice cream, I wake up with a new goal, a new determination, some puffy eyes, but most importantly a brain ready to take on the world.

Bring on the breakdowns. Let them take their course, like everything they ebb and flow and they bring me down to just bring up even higher again. 

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