A glorious heaven

(And here comes another blog about chasing your dreams)

I feel as if every ounce of creativity and passion has been beaten out of me by a 10 pound text book the past few weeks. From 7:30 a.m. to 2 a.m. the next morning, life is a jumbled mess of homework, work, presentations, stories and an exorbitant amount of coffee and energy drinks. 

I spend the 5 and half hours while I'm not busy living life, catching up on some oh too precious Zs. And when the end of all of the work rolls around I have nothing show, but the fact that I got through everything with few to no mental breakdowns. Sometimes that's even a stretch. 

The only material I have to show are the couple little notes I hurriedly jotted down in my notebook before running off to do something else. At the end of seven days my blog has been kicked to curb with no new material to cushion it. 

In the past year blogging has become a part of who I am. It isn't just a past time or a hobby anymore. It has become part of my every day habits. Even though I may not blog every single day, I don't go a day without jotting a little thought down or an idea for a blog or a topic I want to write about. But it seems that once again the college course load has taken over my brain, and I no longer have the mental drive to produce good products.

That is going to change. Writing isn't just something I do, it is who I am. And abandoning that talent is just foolish. This summer will be dedicated to reading as much as I can and writing as much as I can and asserting myself into the world of words in which I one day hope to rest comfortably. 

I have done quite a few unique and awesome things in my life, but joining the blogging community has probably been one of the very best things; and it just keeps getting better. 

Earlier this week I found a quote hidden in some very small text in a book on dance and photography. And it has stuck with me: 

"If thou follow thy star, thou canst not fail of a glorious heaven."
          - Dante

I've never been a huge fan of Dante, but this idea reassures me. To me it means that if I work toward and chase my dream, in the end I can not fail. And even though failing is my biggest fear, I think I can conquer it and find my heaven on this earth. 

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