Honesty session

First off if you are reading this around or on the date it was published, mind the design. I am in the middle of a blog makeover and am just going bit by bit to fix it up and make it sparkle.

On to today's topic. It is time for an honesty session here on Basically My Soul. Lately, I have been thinking an awful lot about my faith and my religion.

And before any of you get offended I would like to say this post is not preachy whatsoever. It is simply about me and what has been going on with me personally and I just thought I would share. That is all. I am an open minded person not here to put down anyone's beliefs at all!

But it has been weighing on my heart for quite sometime now.

I grew up going to church every Sunday. It was kind of habit for me and I never really questioned it. My parents woke me up every Sunday morning, made me dress nicely and brought me to church.

I enjoyed bits and pieces of it and some churches better than others. It had become routine for me. But as I got older I started enjoying it less and less for a couple reasons. One, I didn't like the pastor or the people at the church I attended at the time. They were snotty, upidty and thought they were better than everyone else, and I didn't appreciate that. No person is better than another.

Once junior/senior year of high school came around I stopped going to church altogether. My parents never really said anything about it ever again. We just stopped going.

I went off to college not thinking much of it. I had my beliefs and was confident about that. But eventually I stopped really thinking about my faith. I didn't talk to anyone about it. I didn't talk to God. I didn't go to church. I didn't continue the development of my spirituality.

But again, I didn't really think much of it. Neither did my parents. Neither did my friends.

But I have been thinking about Christianity and my relationship with God the past few months. I don't know why or what sparked them, but I have been. I thought it was silly to throw something like that away. Even though in the past it felt it had become just the routine, it was a part of who I was and I had a strong relationship with Christ. 

I have been having these feelings and I haven't really known what to do with them. So I stuffed them in a drawer thinking I will just deal with them later. But over and over again I have been reminded about my faith.

Then today I was scrolling through the YouTube channel of one of my favorite YouTubers/Bloggers, Sprinkle of Glitter. She has quickly become a role model for me. She posted a video nearly a year ago, but I watched it anyway. It was about her exploring her faith and the church and it really just encouraged me.

She talked about how she was feeling a little bit empty and wasn't really sure what was wrong. Her dad suggested she go to this little church group in town. And with the open mind she has she gave it a shot. She ended up really enjoying it and the people who go there and every Sunday when she left service she just felt happy. And that is definitely something I am a little short on at the moment.

All in all I don't know where to go from here or what to do with these feelings I have. But this blog is a home away from home of sorts for me and I thought the first step into feeling happy and exploring my feelings and my faith, was to share it with my lovely readers and followers.

If you've read this far thanks ever so much and if you have any tips, encouragement or comments please leave them down below as I would love to read them. And if you have the time please watch this video. It really just gave me encouragement!

That's all for now! 


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