Shamelessly myself


People are going to judge you anyway. So forget everyone and be yourself.

This is the silliest thing I will ever say, but I have actually been a little bit nervous to blog lately. For some odd reason, my mind keeps telling me that what I do is pointless or a waste of time or weird. It keeps telling me that well because I'm a girl I should be blogging about beauty products and fashion, and that blogging about motivation or make believe stories or lifestyle or "Nikki things" is stupid. It keeps saying people aren't going to want to read those things, or they will judge you for writing something like that. 

So for the past few weeks I've built up quite a collection of posts and writing that I never posted, because I was actually scared to blog. 

It sounds ridiculous now that I'm writing this. I blogged every single day last year, and I didn't care one single bit if someone hated my posts or thought they were stupid or pointless. I shrugged and kept on writing. Because writing was what I did. It's what I do. 

I started this blog because I wanted a place other than my nearing full hard drive to write and work on my craft. I wanted to be a writer so I took the next step. I wanted a place to write about stories that ran through my head or emotional times I went through. I also wanted to talk about my latest arts and crafts projects and feelings. 

I was happy and content with the 5.2 people who read my blog, because I was doing it for me. It made me feel good, so I let everyone else's opinions go. 

But now I feel this pressure or responsibility to be a certain kind of blogger. Professionals say brand yourself brand yourself! The industry is saying have a PR blog because that will help your future. Society is saying you are a girl, so blog about beauty and fashion, because that's what girls do. 

Here's the thing. I don't want to do any of those things. I just want to blog. I just want to write. I just want to do what makes me happy without pressure from people telling me who and what to be. 

I'm not here to be noticed. I'm not here to have a following. I'm not here to help my future. I'm not here to satisfy a societal norm. 

I am here to be me. I am here to write about what I want, when I want to. I want to be me, not what everyone else wants to see.  

I'm tired of being afraid to do that. 

So from now on, this blog is whatever I want to to be. It is a place for me to become a better writer. It is a place for me to talk about my feelings and my mug collection. This blog is me. And to me there is nothing better than being shamelessly myself. 

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  1. Of course people want to read if not they wouldnt have followed keep up the work and write from the heart and we'll keep on reading. Lovely post

    Carrieanne x

    http://beautiesunlocked.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you so much! That gives me that little boost of confidence I sometimes need. I love to write, so I think I'm just going to keep on doing it!

      xo

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