Helpless

This time two years ago I was a little sophomore in college just beginning to figure myself out and find my little niche in my field. I didn't have a solid plan on what to do after graduation, only large dreams. My only goal for the foreseeable future was to get good grades and go on a fun spring break trip. Two years later, I'm a senior in college perhaps more lost now than I was even then. 

As a sophomore I had the ability to say I had time to figure it out. I didn't need to worry so much about the future or what job I wanted when I was going to graduate. I didn't have to think about going on interviews or potentially moving to a new city even state. And now all of those "I'll worry about it later" deadlines are quickly approaching. In one week I will be starting my final semester of college. And by the end of this semester I will hopefully have a job lined up, a future planned out and an idea of where I'm going to end up. But even now, just like I was two years ago, the future is ambiguous. 

There is a lot of excitement in the possibilities I have, but there is equally a lot of fear and insecurity. I have worked extremely hard throughout my college years and believe I have a lot of passion and skill behind my actions, so I can only trust that things will work out the way they are meant to work out. But right now sitting in a limbo between everything I have ever known and the great big scary world, I feel a bit helpless.